Consequently
I....
can't help but to admit....
how days without you have enabled me to
EMOTIONALLY quit....
caring

Frequent episodes
of how we use to sit on moonlit porches
just
sharing

For a second I almost forgot
how
pressures brought constant onslaught
and how suddenly to my right...that empty slot
made it hard for me to go on....
baring

If only we could hit rewind
omit regrettable circumstances
and break free from this state of Mental..
Wary

Because Life without Love
is just
Artificially...
Necessary

So....
In The Meantime
I couldn't resist

and in my attempts to persist in getting a taste of that former effervescent bliss
I remembered...
your lips

and how they intentionally
use to set my soul
adrift

unafraid to express affections for me
continued
by
a simple
soft
kiss

And again I
Reminisced....

Back to a time
when
I was your backbone
and you were mine...
back when the bond was so strong that you had me pitching tent on... cloud....
nine

Reciting me poetry like whimsical stories at...
bedtime
That Read
"Baby!...Me without you are unconceivable thoughts to my... mind. You are the completion of my hearts desire right alongside my seed and the Spiritual..Divine, Existing in my world not as a mere season, because you were meant to be...my wife..........and I Love You"

but then I drifted back to our relationships present....
demise
and how it's so easy to leave
but somehow too toilsome to keep....
trying

So here I sit in a state of nonchalant emotionless emotions
but inside
my heart is slowly...
dying

Hoping that
ONE DAY
back to each other
we'll
find

But...
In the Meantime......
I have to go on with...
my life
And just Maybe.....
We'll get it right...next time.