She was the only one I ever told…
As my heart pounded and mind raced
I felt she was the only one who could
Openly consume my confined disgrace
And I knew my secret she would hold
In that safe place where no heads could shake
No eyes could pace and minds entwined with shame
She was the only one I ever told…
And I never saw this day
For all my past hurt I had buried and pushed far away.
With no doubt or delay I faced …
I faced it with you, I faced it today.
My shoulders instantly felt weak
As if a million pounds of hidden grief
Had been taken from me and been released.
She was the only one I ever told…
And now I wonder why though
I have many reasons, I still do not know.
The magic between us truth be told.
It must have been an illusion
An illusion of two hearts
Coming together producing ~one~ mold
But broken so soon
Like a game of cards
She decided to Fold
She was the only one I ever told…
And now I know I didn’t do my part
She is gone forever with my secret
And we didn’t even get past start…
She was the only one I ever told…
She was my heart and she didn’t even know…
I don’t know what happened
I didn’t mean to let her go.
She was the only one I ever told…
Now I must learn this lesson and it’s cold
But I made a mistake and I chose this road.
Realizing that this secret it mine again
There’s no escaping its black Hold… cause
She was the only one I could tell,
She is the only one I ever told…
This weight is again so heavy on my shoulders
I wait for the day my mind, body and soul will fold
Cause now… I’ve never told…~