Boys To Men - New Edition

How do you pour out liquor when you don't drink,
Or even waste a word when you speak,
I don't know but to all of my dead peoples that will always live in my heart,
you can disassemble my body but you and I will never be apart,
I've taken charge of my feelings and now I'm in control,
You're death has made me much stronger, it sounds crazy, I know,
But it's the truth and you know I stutter when I lie,
And I put holes in walls and break tables cause I refuse to cry,
But people always get sad when they look in my eyes,
Cause of all the pain I kept inside,
But no longer will I,
be a prisoner of such things as that,
That seem to be tough at the time but only hold me back,
I remember one time I broke down for no reason,
I guess because of all the built up pain I was concealing,
Believing in God has equaled out all things that were odd,
My emotions have leveled out and i love my job,
Doing things you always knew I would do,
I remember you told me even though we were the same age you said "I'm proud of you"
And that's real coming from somebody that's my ken,
Now that I have come to grips with my emotions my life can finally begin,
I'm 27 going on 21,
You do the math for six years I knew nothing of fun,
But now I have a heart that is never afraid,
And I had a woman in my life to help me deal with the pain,
God has blessed me to the point where when anything in life tests me,
I've got my number two pencil calculator ready