LAST NIGHT I WAS ON BRINK OF INSANITY
LAYING IN THE BED SUFFERING FROM INSOMNIA
I FELT MY STRESS LEVEL RISING INSIDE OF ME
AS I SET UP IN MY BED MY HEAD STARTED TO POUND
EVERY EMOTION I WAS FEELING ROSE UP FROM THE PIT OF MY STOMACH
LEAVING MY THROAT FEELING BOUND
IT WAS HARD TO SWALLOW AND IT FELT AS IF MY BREATH WAS TAKEN AWAY
AT THAT VERY MOMENT I WANTED TO PRAY
ASK THE LORD WHY THIS PAIN SO HEAVILY WEIGHED
BUT I DIDN'T BECAUSE I WAS ASHAMED
KNOWING IN MY HEART I WAS THE REASON FOR MOST OF MY PAIN
AS I PACED THE FLOOR
I FOUGHT TO KEEP THE TEARS FROM FALLING
NOT WANTING TO JUSTIFY THE PAIN BY ACKNOWLEDGING
THAT IT EVEN EXISTS
OR THAT INSIDE OF ME GOOD AND EVIL CO-EXISTS
LAST NIGHT I WAS FACED WITH MY OWN REALITY
PUSHING ME VERY CLOSE TO THE EDGE OF INSANITY.