I'm that girl.... yea that girl wonderin why
it had to happen to her family when everything was goin fine
i thought that time in our lives had past but it just goes to show
good times don't always last, i should've already known
he wasn't the best father, but i really think he tried
to play it by ear seein that he didn't have one by his side
it kills me know that he's just repeating this cycle
for my baby brothers to endure and my mother to decipher
no longer angry, i wear my bitterness on my shirt
and years have gone by without me tryna figure out his hurt
i never stopped to think about the things he has been through
uncompassionately, i thought, if i can do it, he can too.
my mother told me about his experiance of abuse
years of pain at the hands of a sick man
even still, i treated him like an out of place bum
we had the same experiance... just very different outcomes
he did drugs to escape from his hell
it was a quick and easy solution to his long lasting problem
but years after it was over, he couldn't break the spell
so i'm writing this to release
everything i held against him... resentment, bitterness, anger
truthfully, even my condescending attitudes
it took him having to get in serious trouble to realize how stupid i've been and for that i'm very ashamed.

At this moment, i forgive you for everything, daddy... and i hope you forgive me for not being the best daughter i could be. wherever you are right now, i hope you know i love you and that you're in my prayers

And Blessinda thanks for being the best friend i could have and for always being there for me... i love ya like a sister.