Let go and let God

Its been crazy
Facing so many thing
That didn’t make since
Stressin ova things
But I am only 17
Tryna find away out
All by myself
Not trusting a soul
No one could bring relief
Tryna help friends
But facing the same issues
I tried so hard
But still I worried
How my story will end
Closed my eyes many times
Thoughts of death
Not the death of me
But people I need
to help me stay strong
My mother had a stroke
I didn’t shed a tear
In front of any other eyes
Until that night
When my eyes closed
And I thought she was gone
Woke up sweating
Tears in my eyes
Only realizing she was still there
Alive…with a heart beat
Then my grandmother had a heart attack
They told me
I stared at the wall
Neva looked up
Neva looked down
Only thinking of losing her
But she wasn’t gone
Went to see her
Wanted to make things betta
Didn’t even make eye contact
As she laid in intensive care
I was scared
Still worrying how these stories would end
But after a while
I let go
And let God
Have his way
I realized that God’s the only one
That can bring relief
That can give strength
That can bring my family through
The time of need
I don’t have to cry
Cause I stop worrying
How my story will end
I let God have his way
So much was going on
But It not my battle to fight
So I let go
So my message is
Stop worrying
Stop shedding tears
Just let go
And let God have his way
Don’t stand in the way
Of what God has for you

R.I.P to anyone you have lost in your life…I was blessed to have my mother and grandma still here with me..but many lost some…but please stay strong..I know it may be hard..But let go and let God…he will help you through…He’s the only one with answers…So let go…and let god…….