ii never intentionally did it, ya know?
ii always wanted us to grow.
Always wanted a family with this man.
Always wanted to bare his wedding band,
to acheive what others had not.
But somewhere along the line ii forgot
that love was the reason we entered this.
ii'd dismiss and miss
all the little things that mattered the most to him, all those things that warmed his face.
My place
as his lover was vacant even while ii was standing there and he knew that.
Our love was bruised - blue and black,
by one simple gesture, one simple touch.
In one single moment ii took away so much.
So much pride. So much happiness. So much strength. So much faith.
& he believed we'd be aight, that all we had to do was pray and wait
for things to fall back into place.
But ii knew that in this race
called temptation ii'd fallen so far back that ii'd never catch up.
ii knew that ii'd never be able to take back what ii'd done, and that ii'd never be able to give enuff.
Why ii found comfort in another's bed, in another's arms,
while ii knew ii was causing harms
that ii'd never be able to shield him from, ii don't know.
& that was the reason that ii ... let him go.