like Leonardo and Rose of Titanic
"Life" stays afloat resting on this piece of broken wood
as I ..dead weight and decrepit spirit
dangling in the water gripping my own hand

i looked deep into my eyes and said
i cant promise i wont let go
because ive been holding on for far too long
our body is now 90% froze
lips dark purple
quaking for a chance of regaining feeling
heart shaking off ice tickles
Life i feel your grasp slipping

sea turtles coming to my rescue
pushing up like lillypads right under my feet
unknown to u, i kick them away
so it would be easier for me to sink

stop looking at me like that Life
you know i cant stand it when u cry
it always seemed to make it feel like
thick blood shouting from our eyes

now needing your undivided attention
i need you to pay close to what im about to say
Life, my love, this shall be the day
one must leave and let these waters heal the swelling
the pain and struggling that has caused so much internal bleeding
my heart now belongs to the sea but with you
ill leave behind my love
keep the memory of me alive
and know that it was time for me to give up

caressing my beautiful yet terrified face wiping away the tears
askin to just let me go...set me free
ill leave u my spirit..so you will forever stay afloat
and every once in awhile
blow soft kisses in the wind for me

and just like that
i kissed my fleshy hand
placing it within the water
as my transparent tears mixed with
the bubbles of my watery departure


*quick note..this is NOT a me saying goodbye to someone more so an outta body experience if u wanna call it. me saying goodbye to myself. so to those who confused it of a different kinda of love know its me one on one with me