WISDOM21:

MY NAME IS MAURICE//
AT AGE 6 MY MOTHER LEFT ME IN THE STREET WIT NO FOOD TO EAT//
TORN CLOTHES ON MY BACK WITH NO SHOES ON MY FEET//
CRYING "MOMMY!!!!!!!!" TIL RIVERS STREAMING DOWN MY CHEEK//
AS IT STARTED TO RAIN THE COPS CAME AND PLACE ME IN THE ORPHANAGE//
IT WAS HOUSE OF HELL, YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TORTURE IS//
WHILE BEING HOME SCHOOLED I WAS BEATIN AND CORRECTED//
BEING PICKED ON FOR READING BOOKS, I WAS ALWAYS NEGLECTED
I WAS TALKED ABOUT AND DISRESPECTED//
TRAINED IN THE HOUSE OF PAIN SO I WAS TAUGHT TO BE AGGRESSIVE//
I WENT FROM BEING BEATIN AND MOLESTED//
FROM MOLESTED TO BEING HIV INFESTED//
MY WHOLE CHILDHOOD WAS HECTIC//
I WONDER IF GOD HATED ME OR WAS I BEING TESTED?//
I GREW COLDER AND COLDER TIL I GOT OLDER//
WALKIN WIT HATE WITH THE DEVIL ON MY SHOULDA//
TO MAKE THE LONG STORY SHORT//
I WAS ARRESTED FOR DRUGS AND WENT TO COURT//
I WAS ACCUSED GUILTY AND WENT TO JAIL FOR 6 YEARS WIT NO BAIL//
A JAIL OF LOST SOLDIERS IN THE HOUNDS OF HELL//
AFTER MY SENTENCE I WENT TO SCHOOL FOR PSYCHOLOGY AND PHILOSOPHY//
MINOR IN WRITING TO WRITE MY OWN BIOGRAPHY//
I GOT LOVE FOR FAMILIES AND PEERS//
SO SUICIDE COUNSELOR BECAME MY CAREER//

  jiji:

AS HE ANSWERD THE PHONE HE SAID U REACHED THE SUICIDE HOTLINE
TALK TO ME WHATS ON YO MIND I GOT NOTHIN BUT TIME
CRYIN SHIVERIN SCARED DIDN KNO WHAT TO SAY SO I REMAINED QUIT
ONCE AGAIN HE SAID HELLO AND BY ACCIDENT I SPOKE
HE SAID HOW MAY I HELP U R U CALLIN FOR YOURSELF
OR ADVICE FOR SOMEONE ELSE
I SAID TONIGHT IMMA END MY LIFE
BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH DONT KNO IF U WANNA HEAR IT
BUT IMMA TELL U HOW I CAME TO THIS
GET READY TO LISTEN
I GUESS I SHOULD START BY TELLIN U WAT MY NAME IS
MY NAME IS SHERRY AND WITH LIFE I HAD ENOUGH
ALL MY YEARS OF LIVIN NOTHIN BUT BAD LUCK
WAS RAPED AS A CHILD BY FAMILY AND MAMAS "FRIENDS"
BECAME PREGNANT AT 15 AND GAVE HIM UP AT 21
I TRIED TO DO RIGHT BY MY BABIES SIDE
HAD EM FOR 6 YEARS NOT ONE BIRTHDAY PARTY OR CHRISTMAS PRESENTS
SOME NIGHTS HE DIDN EVEN EAT
I SPENT WELFARE CHECKS ON COCAINE AND WEED
I WAS A VICTIM TO SOCIETY
THOUGHT MY BABY BOY WOULD DO BETTER WITHOUT ME
SO I LEFT HIM ON THE STREETS
I WAS TOO HIGH TO REALIZE WAT I DONE
BECAUSE MENTALLY I REALLY WAS UNAWARE
YEARS LATER I STILL GO BACK TO C IF HES STILL THERE
I GAVE A MAN EVERY THING I HAD
MY HEART MY TIME & ALL OF ME
AND TO GET ON MY FEET HE HELPED ME STAND
I WAS FINNALY ON MY FEET I THOUGHT I HAD OVERCOME
I WAS EVEN GOIN TO CHURCH AND STUFF
AND STILL LOOKIN FOR MY SON
THEN ONE DAY IT ALL CHANGED
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE SAID HE WASNT N LOVE ANYMORE
HAD MY STUFF PACKED AND SITTIN AT THE DOOR
I SAT THERE BEGGED TOLD HIM PLEASE DONT LEAVE
CRYIN SCREAMIN AND HE CALLED THE POLICE
SO I WENT BACK TO THE STREETS
LIVIN IN OUT OF CRACK HOUSES
SELLIN MY BODY JUS TO EAT
ASKIN GOD Y IS HE DOIN THIS TO ME
MAN IM DONE WITH THIS THERE NOTHIN ELSE I CAN DO
I THINK MY SON IS DEAD I HAVE NO FAMILY NOBODY CARES SO LIVIN WHATS THE USE
I DONT EVEN KNO Y I CALLED I DONT WANNA LISTEN 2 U
HELL CANT B WORST THEN MY LIFE SO IM THROUGH

  WISDOM21:

LISTEN TO ME, I UNDERSTAND YOUR PAIN AND THE SHAME//
IT SEEMS LIKE NO MATTER WHAT YOU DO, IT WILL NEVER CHANGE//
AT A YOUNG AGE I WAS BEATIN AND MOLESTED, BECAME HIV INFESTED//
NEVA KNEW I HAD IT TIL THE SICKNESS MANIFESTED//
NO CURE FOR THIS SICKNESS, BUT MEDICINE WAS REQUESTED//
COULDN'T GET THAT CUZ I HAD NO MONEY INVESTED//
I WAS ARRESTED FOR GUN POSSESSION AND ALL THE DRUGS I COLLECTED//
I WAS IN JAIL FOR 6 YEARS AND FELT SO PATHETIC//
I FELT LIKE GOD TOOK MY LIFE AND PUT AN X ON IT, DESPISED IT AND STEPPED ON IT//
CUZ MY MOTHER DROWN ME IN THE SEA OF FORGETFULNESS//
BUT I FORGIVE HER AND STILL LOVE HER//
TO THIS DAY I STILL LONG TO TOUCH HER//
I'M DOING WELL NOW CAUSE I STILL GOT A REASON TO LIVE//
SHERRY YOU STILL GOT A REASON TO LIVE//
IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT YOU DID CAUSE WHAT YOU DID IS IN THE PAST//
LIFE IS A DASH CAUSE WHAT YOU DO BETWEEN LIFE AND DEATH IS A TEST TO PASS//
YOU ARE MUCH BIGGER THAN CRACK//
IN FACT, YOUR DRUG PROBLEMS I WANNA HELP U WIT THAT//
YOUR LOST SON I WANNA HELP YOU//
BUT YOU GOTTA BE WILLING TO HELP YOURSELF TOO//

  jiji:

SORRY ABOUT YO PAST
HEARIN ABOUT YOUR LIFE MAKES ME SO SAD
BUT U SAY U WANNA HELP
BUT IF I LISTEN TO U THEN WHAT?
I HAVE NOTHIN TO GO BACK TO
MY LIFE HAS NO USE
AND THERES NOTHIN U CAN DO
I DONT EVEN KNO Y I CALLED
I JUS PRAY THAT WHEN I GO GOD LETS ME IN
DESPITE MY MISTAKES AND MANY SINS
THANKS FOR LISTENIN TO ME BUT I GOTTA GO
HE SCREAMS SHERRY NO
AND I HUNG UP THE PHONE
WITH LIFE I SWEAR I HAD ENOUGH
I PRAYED I WILL GET TO HEAVEN BY LUCK
AND I SHOT THE GUN!

I WAKE UP IN BEAUTIFUL CLOUDS
ANGELS SINGIN PLAYIN AROUND
A SIGN THAT SAID GO THIS WAY
AND IT LED ME TO HEAVENS GATES
AS I REACHED THE DOORS I BEGAN TO PRAY
AS I INPATIENTLY WAIT
TO C WAT HAPPENS PRAYIN I MADE IT IN
FINGERS AND TOES CROSSED
WORDS WAS LOST
ALL I COULD DO WAS CRY
AND WAIT FOR GOD TO ARIVE
JUS THEN THE GATES OPENED
THE MOST BEAUTIFUL FORM OF ANYHTING ANYWHERE STOOD IN FRONT OF MY FACE
I WAS IN COMPLETE AWE
AND I KNEW IT WAS GOD
BUT HE DIDN HAVE A SMILE ON HIS FACE
A LOOK OF DISAPPOINTMENT BECAUSE OF THE DECISION I MADE
I IMMEDIATELY STARTIN TELLIN GOD ABOUT MY LIFE AND Y I DID WAT I DID CRYIN WISHIN AND HOPIN HE UNDERSTOOD NOT KNOWING HE ALREADY KNEW
HE INTERUUPTED AND SAID I CREATED U I KNOW WHAT U BEEN THROUGH
I KNOW EVERTYTHING
I CREATED YO LIFE FROM A TO Z
AND THINGS U WENT THROUGH WASNT FOR U
BUT TO B A TESTIMONY IN SOMEONE ELSES LIFE
FOR THEM TO C U OVERCAME AND MAYBE THEY MIGHT
BUT NO U DECIDED TO TAKE YA LIFE
WHO ARE TO TO TELL ME WHEN ITS YOUR TIME TO DIE
I CREATED U AND THE DECISION WAS MINE
AND MY CHILD ALL U HAD TO DO WAS ASK
PRAY AND PUT YA LIFE IN MY HANDS
I AM GOD
THE WAY THE TRUTH AND THE LIFE
Y COULDN U JUS REALIZE
U WERE ALMOST THERE
YOUR BREAKTHROUGH WAS SURE TO COME
ALL U HAD TO DO WAS HOLD ON
MY PLANS FOR YA LIFE NOW U WILL NEVER KNOW
AND YOUR SON IS ALIVE HE WAS THE OPERATOR ON THE PHONE
MAN IT HURTS MY HEART TO KNOW WHERE U WIL RESIDE
I SCREAMED BEGGED PLEADED AND CRIED
GOD DISSAPERAED AND A VOICE LAUGHED AND SAID NOW YOUR MINE
THIS IS WAT HAPPENS WHEN U COMMIT SUICIDE