It's hard to live your life the way Jesus said,
When all these unholy thoughts linger in my head,
Living one step away from poverty,
And nothing stopping me from plotting robberies,
Wondering if God is really watching me,
Or am I feeling all alone because He's forgotten me,
Wondering if my prayers are really heard,
Or is a death ear the reason why there's no word,
I wish I knew how to get my life on track,
But the burden of my sins will hold me back,
Searching for happiness in a world of pain,
My heart goes to Africa Lord give them rain,
This ain't the way life's suppose to be,
We should have thrones ruling like Kings and Queens,
I'm tired of living in the dark,
I'd even take a Lillith at the risk of broken heart,
Can no one that I see see me too,
Or am I just a window for you to see through,
Though the fire to my passion burns vehemently,
I've seen hope be an insult to injury,
Or is it just low self-esteem,
Or has reality prevented me from having dreams,
I think my soul is out of whack,
I pray somebody catches me falling through the cracks,
I'm trying to make it up to heaven so I'm looking to the reverend
for his lesson so that I might get a blessing,
And things obvious are always overlooked,
Or is it just another page from my poem book