Sitting here alone with just my memories
Remincing about how good things used to be
My heart keeps beating just for you
I still love you, but you don't even have a clue

Pull my knees up tight to me chest
Lay my head down, and the sobbing becomes uncontrollable
Everyone who doesn't know me laughts at the girl whos always depressed
But the people that do know, just think i'm fucking obsessed

But there all wrong, they tell me I should get over you and move along, but
No one understands, the feelings that I feel are MINE
Stop pretending you know "exactly what i'm goin through",
If only you knew
How much motivation it takes me to get out of bed
And how many nights i just lay awake and think of words you've said

Look at me!! I'm only human, I can only take so much!
There have been so many drops of blood shed
Straight from my wrist they have bled
And even more tears have been shed

And you wanna hear the worst fucking part??
What keeps me holding on? What gives me a reason to keep on going?
The thought of you deep down in my heart!!
Just the tiny hope that maybe someday you'll come back to me
And i'll be the girl that you love and the one YOU write about,
And the one you think of everyime you listen to your favorite cd

Its so difficult to keep holding onto everything that is no longer mine
But its even harder to try and let go