You never know what you have until it's gone
Now I know why most people tell you to save yourself until marriage
I had pride in the one thing that I could give to the person I would marry
That night was the night that I could never take back
I was proud of the fact that I was18, in college, and still a virgin
But I met a guy that seemed to like me
As he pulled up my shirt and sucked on my nipples
My mind and mouth was saying no but my body was weak
As he pushed my head downward to his dick, I tried to pull away
But when he pushed my head further, the tip was in my mouth
Ijust gave in and I sucked his dick until he wanted me to stop
I never did it before but he was turned on by the sounds I was making
His dick got harder in my mouth so I kept going up and down
He wanted me to suck his balls so I did and I licked him too
I was surprised when he started to come in my mouth
Then he told me to take off my pants
I was scared and I said that I was a virgin
He said that everything was going to be ok
He wanted to go inside me with no condom
But I said "Do you have a condom?"
He got one out of his pocket, put it on, and started to put his dick inside me
I was in the worst pain as he put the head inside
I was about to cry but he told me that everything is fine
I saw blood and got worried. I didn't want to do it anymore
However he said that we started so we might as well finish.
So he put his dick back inside me.
I felt pain the whole time but it got a little better with time
He was going slow for me and he was kissing me while I was about to cry
Then he went faster and all I heard were my moans in the air
He was going so deep that I couldn't speak when he asked me did I like it
When he finally came, we got up and walked back to where we were.
After he told me to call him, he kissed me, smacked on my ass, and left.
I went in my room and the tears just fell
I felt so weak and stupid that I gave my virginity away.
I thought that it was going to be great but it wasn't
I prayed to God and I hope that He forgives me
The guy did not force me to have sex with him
It was a choice that I made and now I regret it
So I might not be a virgin anymore but I will tell others to save themselves
That was the only time I had sex but sex is not right for me right now
I wanted that man that puts that ring on my finger to be my first
But I'm planning on not having any more sex until marriage
It's too late for me but it's not too late for you.