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He wants it
but I don't want to
and I'm caught between
just laying passive
as he gets his

but is this
what its come down to...

just laying passive

I always thought
expressing love was
being turned on by the experience
and throwing your full self in it
but maybe love is
even when you don't want it,
smiling through it
like its business

he said,
its been two weeks
...so he's counting
and all you want is a kiss
and then to go to sleep

but he's touching you
and you know what's coming next
the swell of him against your stomach
is fair warning
yet it fills you with apprehension
because 'no' trembles on your lips
but his voice breaks on
"don't you want me?"
and you groan in frustration
cause you don't,
while you still do
but somehow that groan was misconstrued
and his need doesn't hear you
and he's ready
while you’re not

and he coming
while you’re not

and love just made making love distasteful