June 6, 2006
Love’s Resolution

His love was so sweet and tender
All the others I can’t remember
Because he,
So true, so sweet,
Had every other love beat.
So true, genuine
A friend indeed,
There when in need,
Never did he mislead.
So true, never did he let me down,
Always around.
“The one”, I thought,
“The last”, I vowed.
“The man who would father my child.”
Early days, so tender,
A “Puppy love.”
It grew strong,
Sent from above.
Frightening was the strength of this love,
Suspicious of every woman,
Curious of every man.
Cuts and scrapes,
Where does it end?
Flats and fights,
Arguments, sleepless nights.
Passionate sex follows these antics
Repeated like frantic
But the last time added a scene
An out-take in “The Tale of Two Teens”
A break up because he was caught in the act,
Retaliation,
Monte Carlo on a flat
Mind blowing was the make up.
I looked in his eyes,
While he looked in mine
Still inside
Screams filled the room
Love engaged us, love consumed
Our thoughts, our mind
We were one.
Together,
One being under the sky.
One life, one love, one breath, one eye.
After the make up comes a break up
But three weeks later something doesn’t show up.
Panic, fear arises inside.
You scream, you shout, you cry
You hide.
The result of one night of heated passion and pain.
One night, one moment decided a fate
Of two lovers, teens caught in ecstasy.
I think to myself Karma’s caught up with me.
I call, I cry, I text, I scream
“****, how could you do this to me?”
He responds, “I’m sorry.
Are you sure it’s me?”
My heart sinks, I cry hysterically,
“That’s how you feel? You don’t care about me?”
He replies, “I do,
I care about you.
Baby we’ll get through it, me and you.”
I think to myself this will keep us together,
But I know this is chancy like the weather.
I end the phone call with these last words,
I end the call with a curve,
“I love you, ****, but I have dreams,
College, Law School, a few degrees.
I can’t afford this baby, you and me,
So this baby can never be.
I know I’ll regret it every moment of my life,
But know it’s best for you, me
And our unborn child.
I’m not thinking about just the here and now,
But the future too,
You graduate next you and very few
Have opportunities like me and you
And it’s unfair for this baby to be born under these circumstances ,
His baby will lack fair advancements.
Low income, food stamps, public schools,
Aid office, child support, and mental abuse,
Because Mommy and Daddy can’t get along.
Fights, anger, I’m still hearing this song.
I hope you understand where I’m coming from
We can make it, we’re still young
No ties, nothing holding us back
And I hope you’ll take advantage of that.
I love you **** and I always will,
That’s why I’m giving our dreams a chance to live.”