Blog Entry
I know why this is happening.....I'm a fucked up person who does horrible things....I treat ppl like crap...like i'm so much better.....like i'm this higher being.......so this is why my pain is greater....this is why i hurt so much..because i put so much hurt into the world.....it's only right that i get screwed......so i my options are to either change my ways and become this humble honest caring giving sweet person.....or to suck it up and take it and live life as i am....i think i'll take the latter of the two simply because i am who i am....there is no changing that.....i try so hard to change for people so that i dont come off as the bitch that i am but I am and i know this and the people who know me and are fine with it and i love them for accepting me as i am....but they also understand that if they didn't i really wouldnt give a fuck....so the point of this post i dont really know just yet i dont now if i'm done typing or wat but it all came about because i saw somethin that kinda made me tear up i was feeling really bad about myself and i was wonder why people treat me badly, but then i realized that itz nothin compared to what i've done....so i'm accepting me for me and people who do things like me as they are no longer will i create a double standard.....so i wipe my tears and dry my eyes....damn i need to turn my brain off for a min cuz i think i'm over thinkin things......again