I'm in a place that's become second nature to me

Loneliness, I've been to familiar with before

Not wanting to wake anymore in the morning scene

headaches-shakes

anger- hatred

unsurity of my purpose- loss of communication with my creator

the day before this- I broke down

spoke my mind outloud to myself to settle down

one thing I said that didn't scare me that should have

Was what I said about God to my future & past

"Fact is Jesus don't want me, leaves my bread levened. Look at me & seriously! Do you think I'm going to enter the kingdom of heaven?! God isn't with me anymore."

It felt so natural for me to say. So calm. I had an understanding of my soul today

I miss my Grandfather. His Jokes. His Voice- We were able to heal each others' void

He missed grandma & I was never tight with anybody cuz I was too mature for my own being

He was always there.

People always say they're just alike, but they're not

they all say they're too mature, but they're not on my level to top

They got clicks, they got crews. I got nobody when I leave my home to go to.

I'm a Loner who isn't afraid of being alone. I just need to regrip my Old nature

back when I was selfish, focused in anger

Aware of my situation

I'm missin' peace- and I don't care what you think when you read this piece.