The sun rises and I stretch out only to feel you next to me....
Your brown beautiful skin combined with the sun...
creates a perfect hue on my sweat drenched sheets...
so bad i want to wake you..but i chose to let you lay...
Lay in your coma like slumber caused by last nights activities
How foolish of me to let this scene happen again
Every other day we fight...you leave...I cry and then....you come back
This unhealthy hold you have on me is damaging...
and with each night I let you come back....
I feel a piece of me leave with you the next morning
so fucking tired of doing this two step but I'm your puppet
Touch me the right way and I shall dance to whatever tune you like...
I just want to cut these strings but every time i try...
My heart gets in the way...I simply just love you too much...
I love you so much that i would give up who I am.....
Just to be whoever it is you want me to be, Just Promise Me...
Promise you will never hurt me again.....Can you do that please??
Ha who am i fooling of course you cant...
And silly me will still let you creep into my room
I will allow my legs to spread hoping....this time you stay for good
the shameful smell of lust and sweat become our fragrance for the night
My muffled cries and your grunts the background music of our ongoing love affair
So badly i want to just end all this non-sense and finally erase you from my life..
But im scared...im scared to be alone.,,scared to wake up and no one be there..
So Here i Lay watching you sleep as the sun continues to radiate around you...
A lump forms in my throat as i try and hold back tears......
because i know at any moment you can awaken.....
throw on your jeans...shoes..shirt.....fitted and leave once again....
So I mouth the words I love you....
Kiss your cheek
stare at you a lil while longer
and allow a single tear
to fall from my eye
as i roll out of bed and get ready for work
uncertain of the next time you will love me
.....love me for just one night