Behind the ninety-three year old, dusty, non-operational grandfather clock that’s slightly leaning up against the spider webbed wall is where I hid, in the attic…
Fear so intense my body trembles like a leaf, can’t control my breathing, can’t stop my tears from flowing, I’m in total panic…
I spit red, oh WOW, I’m bleeding again, I’ve tasted my own blood so many times I don’t even realize that my mouth is broken anymore…
Then I hear it (my hearts beating faster), the opening of the squeaky, old English, rusted door…

Him:
Where are you bitch? Where the fuck you at? When I get my fucking hands on you, believe you me, you’re through!!!”

Holla:
It’s now or never… I stand up to this mothafucka now, or let him kill me,
Blow for blow… fuck it… if he kills me then it was my destiny…

I’M OVER HERE, LOOK AT ME MOTHAFUCKA…
YOU SEE THE SCARS ON MY FLESH???
I’MA MAKE YOU LICK THE BLOOD OFF OF THEM
CUZ LOOK MOTHAFUCKA, THESE SLASHES ARE STILL FRESH
COME KILL ME MOTHAFUCKA,
DON’T STOP NOW, DON’T YOU FUCKIN QUIT
YOU’VE DONE SO MUCH FUCKING DAMAGE
EITHER WAY I PROBABLY WON’T MAKE IT
WHAT DID YOU THINK MOTHAFUCKA
THAT I WOULD GO OUT WITHOUT A FIGHT
BLOW FOR BLOW IS HOW WE’LL GO
CUZ I’M READY TO FUKCING DIE TONIGHT

(CRYING!!!!!!!)

I AINT SCARED NO MORE MOTHAFUCKA
I’VE SEEN DEATH IN YOUR EYES TO MANY TIMES
YOU KILL ME OR I’LL KILL YOU
BUT ONE OF US IS GONNA GET CHARGED WITH THE CRIME
BITCH, HOE, SLUT, LOOSER, DUMB FUCK
NAMES YOU’VE CALLED ME TO MAKE ME FEEL ASHAME
NOW I LOOK AT MY BIRTH CERTIFICATE
TO TRY TO REMEMBER MY REAL FUCKING NAME
LIKE THROWING HOLY WATER ON THE DEVIL
MOTHAFUCKA YOUR WORDS CUT ME DEEP
AND ALL THE FUCKING BEATINGS
MADE ME LOOSE SLEEP

(CRYING!!!!!!!!)

TRYING TO HEAL MYSELF CAUSE GOD KNOWS
I COULDN’T GO GET HELP
WITHOUT YOU CHASING ME DOWN THE STREET
WHILE BEATING ME WITH YOUR BELT
BUT FUCK YOU MOTHAFUCKA
THERE AINT NO MORE PUNCHING BAG IN ME
CUZ NOW I’MA BEAT YOUR ASS LIKE A BITCH
MAKE YOU FEEL AND SEE WHAT YOU’VE DONE TO ME
I’MA MAKE YOU PAY FOR THE
MISERABLE LIFE I’VE LIVED WITH YOU
ALL I DID WAS LOVE YOU MOTHAFUCKA
JUST LIVED MY LIFE FOR YOU
BUT NOW MOTHAFUCKA, FUCK YOU…

(STILL CRYING!!!!!!!!)

DON’T CRY OR PLEA NOW
IT’S WAY TO LATE FOR THAT
ALL THE SCARS, BRUISES AND ABUSE
YOU COULD NEVER TAKE BACK
SO SAY HELLO TO MY LITTLE FRIEND
CUZ YOUR LIFE IS ABOUT TO END
AND I WON’T GO TO JAIL MOTHAFUCKA
CUZ MY BRUSIES AND SCARS
WILL PROVE IT WAS DONE IN SELF DEFENSE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(BBBB-OOOOO-OOOOOO-MMMMM)


(NO MORE CRYING)