I stand looking in the mirror
disgusted by what I see
this has to be a nightmare
no way in hell this is me
just trying to fit in
and make everyone else smile
I pretended to be something else
for what I thought was only a while
but soon enough I turned
and what is it that I see
the reflection of a man
that wasn't even me
these clothes and this walk
this attitude and this talk
I have grown to be a man
that I myself despise
I have grown to be a man
that is my own demise
I fall to my knees
with my hands to the sky
tears streaming down my face
screamin lord why???
I've fallen so deep in this hole
I can't even see the sky
I built this prison myself
but I can barley remember why
A prisoner in my own mind
I just wish I could be free
stuck in this maze I call my life
while I still search for me
when I was young, at night
I wished to be like everyone else
and now I'm a grown man
wishin I could just be myself
but I don't even know who that is
I truly wish that I did
I've reach the age of a man
but in truth I'm just a lost little kid
I've lost all that is me
trying to satisfy everyone else
so busy with what they wanted
I forgot about myself
I sit alone with tears in my eyes
Just wishing I could go back
to a time before I lost myself
and get my life back on track
how can someone else get to know ME
when I haven't even done that yet
how can I let anyone else get close
to a man I haven't met
how can I love you
when I can barley stand myself
I've been someone else for so long
I dont think there's any of me left
maybe one day in the future
I'll find the right path
and look back on this dreadful day
with a smile and just laugh
but until that day comes
my eyes will still show
the pain of a man
that I dont even know.