DEAR LOVE:

LAYING IN THE WARM BATH AS THE HEAT OF THE WATER FILLS THE ROOM
I THINK ABOUT US AND EVERYTHING WE’VE BEEN THROUGH
ALL THOSE TIMES I BELIEVED YOU WHEN YOU TOLD ME YOU CARED
BUT THEN WHAT ABOUT ALL THE FUCKED UP SHIT YOU DID, IT CAN’T BE COMPARED
YOU SEDUCED MY SOUL WITH BULLSHIT AND RAPED MY HEART OF LOVE
AND DESPITE MY EFFORTS TO KEEP AWAY, YOU WERE ALL I WAS THINKING OF
I LOVED YOU BLINDLY, MAYBE EVEN EXCESS
MAYBE THAT’S THE REASON THE DOCTORS SAID I WAS MENTALLY DISTRESSED
I INHALED YOUR EXHALING BREATHES JUST TO FEEL CONNECTED
I WATCHED YOU AS YOU SLEPT JUST SO YOU WOULD NEVER FEEL NEGLECTED
I WORE YOUR SHIRTS AROUND THE HOUSE JUST TO FEEL YOUR HEAT
AND EVERY TIME I LOOKED IN THE MIRROR MY FUCKING HEART SKIPPED A BEAT
YOU WERE MY EVERYTHING, BUT YOU LEFT MY BACK BARE
LEFT ME WITH NOTHING BUT MEMORIES OF ALL THE TIMES WE SHARED
YOU BROUGHT CHAOS TO MY LIFE, WHEN IT WAS ONCE SO CALM AND SANE
NEVER ONCE DID YOU STOP TO THINK OF ME AND ALL THE FUCKING PAIN
YOU THOUGHT I WAS MADE OF STEEL AND IGNORED THE SOUNDS OF MY CRIES
WELL TAKE A LOOK INSIDE MY SOUL, CAN YOU SEE THE HATE IN MY EYES
YOU THOUGHT ONLY OF YOURSELF CUZ YOU HAD A HEART OF STONE
SO YOU TREATED ME LIKE SHIT AND ALWAYS LEFT ME EMPTY AND ALONE
I LOVED YOU WITH ALL MY BEING AND WISHED ONLY TO BE LOVED IN RETURN
INSTEAD I GOT NOTHING FROM YOU BUT A SOUL THAT WAS SLOWLY BURNED
YOU KILLED MY BELIEF FOR A HAPPY FUTURE, NOW I’M JUST A WOMAN SCORNED
NOW THERE IS NO POINT OF ME LIVING, CUZ I HAVE NOTHING NO MORE
LAYING HERE IN A WARM BATH, TRYING TO FINISH THIS LETTER AS THE CLEAR WATER NOW HAS TURNED RED… I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT I LOVED YOU BUT I SHOULD’VE KILLED U INSTEAD…