*After you read this check out Pt. II please...*

Unsatisfied with life
so I'm livin' a life of strife
can't take back what was hell sent
leavin' me with demons to fight
with my back up against tha wall
my hands behind me pinned
through these words
life and truth is what I spit
my Lil' Brotha' Ripp
done made his peace wit this shit
this world is a fucked up place we live in
and me I can't bear to even look at the wordz I wrote way back when
my souls in limbo even now as I write this
I feel as though I committed one of the most unforgivable sins
I left GS to only leave pissed
WHY ME?!
I NEVER ASKED FOR THIS!
for my homies blood to stain the streets of my hood
for my moms’ to be back in the streets up to no good
sister's survivin' but not livin' like they believe they should
to look in the mirror and see ME
a young women who's father's traits start to invade her soul
I am what they molded me to be
like them but at the same time nothin' like them
and that shit scars me
fuck...this whole life has been a self inflected battle
upon angels and demons
good and evil
right and wrong
love and hate
but this isn’t one of those poems
so none of the childhood stories I know can replace the pain inside
so I pushed my pen and pad to the side
and said, FUCK WRITING!!! FUCK THIS LIFE!!!
FUCK THE WORLD!!! LAWD DIS SHIT AIN'T RIGHT!!!
I'm fed up and pissed
lost ev'ryone close to me
I ball up my fist
To the sky
Ask once again
LAWD WHY ME?
a mental cloud of darkness
forms and clouds my eyes
I cry and wipe
knowing that revenge is what I seek
having no one to talk to
and ev'ryone I talk to doesn't quiet understand
there's really nothing more to be said....