I feel like "F" THE WORLD!!! Mainly my big brother. i Hate everything about my life, i even feel like im startin to hate my mother. I know she know i love er, but right now this is wat im feelin of er. I mean, im 15 now, just trying to learn how to be a man. My real pops aint worth a dollar, an i promise i throw up at the thought of how much i hate mom's husband.

She say ion care about er, cause every second ion tell her whea i be, im like, its not like im out havin sex at risk of H.I.V! she say its more than that, but i know its cause she still look at me as mommy's little baby. I guess she worried dat out on D's streets i might D.I.E! but she be "tooooooo" on my back about whea im at an the company i keep. Yeah i know wat my friends do, they might smoke a little bit of drugs, but come on now, dey blacks in the suburbs, Malibu's most wanted type a thugs.

Somebody tell me wat to do or whea to go, I quickly need an answer. This is one of those times that it doesnt matter that im a singer or a dancer. Do you listen to my lyrics, i truelly poor my heart out thru my songs and my keys. So you may know me.. but who can i trust or love in this world of ENEMIES???????

Royshawn L Walker Feb-17-2009