not tortured
not abused
never beat up
never neglected
so why do i feel pain?
why is my heart so weak from life?
i try
and i try
and i try to stand alone
but i am rejected
pushed away by pain
i cant see it
heart it
sense it
but it touches me
i can very much feel it
buried deep within my soul
feasting on me
telling me that i cant
when i know i can
and you know what
its winning
this is the first time in my life that i've gotten my ass beat
i sit and i think
what is
pain