I have this sick recurring nightmare of rape
My innocence taken at a young age
Dominated by a man and unable to fight back
Intoxicated and ecstasy filled
Eyes blurred and filled with tears

I don’t know where this nightmare came from
Is it a memory of my past that has been repressed??

Being touched in an inappropriate manner
Hair being pulled while his hot smoke-filled breath covers my face

Why?
Why do these thoughts haunt me?
How come it won’t go away?

This sick sensation is burning a hole in my stomach

I am still searching for an explanation
Still questioning these events that somehow seem so true

I can hear the sound of his hand slapping my ass
I can feel my heart beating as he corrupts what WAS me

As the years pass-the nightmare fades.
I am mentally focused on differentiating between fact, fiction, and fantasy

Closing my eyes each night I pray for divine intervention
For a sign that this is just a dream and no truth exists

Maybe

Just Maybe

This recurring nightmare will man up and show his face

Stop being a bitch and just erase

These thoughts…

Before

He catches a case