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Transfixed In the Present...when the Tense

Is Past's

Print's..

Intense Tint's..

Thought's of the Process

As I Watched the Option's...
Become problem's...

I'd Invent..
My Own Future's
Failed Fiasco's

Feeling Fortified
In
Fault's
and Transgression's..

Watching the Foul's Feast
Upon Me...

Just Then Seam's...of thee
Reality
Split
Sucked Up by the
Pit
of Processed....

I Awaken In The Midnight's
Twlight
over looking the Moon's
Sight...
In Full Lure..
next
2
Her

could be the cure..

Question is Could She
Endure?
..My
Tour?
Unique in it's
pure...

  Jamillah:

..put out; wonderin' what he's goin' on about.
I wonder what it is he truly needs from me..
feeling like I can't really be
complementary..

I came into this situation with my own heavy bag..
transfixed by my own messy past..
terrible times with dad..
issues left unresolved..
ones I was hoping a significant other could solve..
and so far.. we haven't been doin'.. so good..

And I think I know why..

My pedestals so high
he couldn't reach it if he tried..

..and here we lie..

just a man.. and a rib

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Just a rib...
making me
the Man...

Insecurities...From Memories

of
Literally...

Giving...
All of Me...

and Watching
Their
Satisfaction In biting my hand
and
breaking my Plan's
4
a
future....

My reaction?

Retracting...
My Love's
Passion

I wonder If She...See's...
all the
Scar's
And
Abrasion's..

Damaged Beyond reason...
still Tryin ta Find the Reason'nin....
4
her
Being...

Mine!....

How She
Hold's My Spine..
and
Bind's...

the Touch of

Time's

Soothing Twine..

while I'm
Teathered
2
the Festered
Fettered
of
My Feeling's
Pressure...

Since
4Ever's...Never!

Sincere....

like that
Land
Pan...
Flew


b4 he was
Peter...

b4
They
Swam...

b4 he'd
leave
her...
AND.........

"Grow Up"

I Need 2 Know
when the
Dust

Settle's

and All other's have Turned...
that Her
Love...


NO!.......................................................................................................................................................................................


Her....
Trust....

NO!


Her
Whole...
Grow's

with What's
Exposed..


when Our
Soul's

Hold...

each
other's

Fragile...And Sattle...
Up

while Holding


(It)

.... Down

So My
Profound
Found

Upon the Pronoun..

of
The
Sound...Of
Eternity..

Entering Me
as I
Realized...
It's Not a Want..But
a Need!

But Will She Accept
Me
4
me?

  Jamillah:

I wonder if we're destined to be..
was I.. am I.. cut out for this??
created by God just to be on his hip.. his faithful sidekick??
I wonder what my mission is...

I mean, what about me??
my needs???
is HE complementary???

Is he strong enough to be my man??

Can he deal with MY insecurities??
..and I mean for more than mere minutes,
months,
maybe years.. for eternities???
is this for forever?? ..or just a long time..

so many questions..

I mean, I want to give my all to him..

but I don't know..

I'm still wonderin'...

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will she love
me
In my
Weakness...

Hold me down
if
she
Can't See
this...

of
which

they say

Exsist's...

within....??

I Turn and look
Deep
into


those
Eye's...

that Hold
My....
Secret's...

Her's was a Face
Made
2
Smile...

"Baby Can I open Up My Wild?...
Speak of Which
You Can't See
but
Sense...

"She Looked Puzzled upon the Imprint of My Blueprint's
Tint....

"Queen I mearly Mean...

Can I share Something's...
Plaquing my mind?...

  Jamillah:

..but it's
the moments like this
that {kinda} assure me he's mine..
that remind me of just what I've been.. to him..

more than just his woman, I've been his friend..
someone he can confide in..
providing nourishment to him.. mind,
body,
and soul..
loving the messed up parts that've been making him whole..

and my doubts are allayed.. {..momentarily..}

When he turns and looks into me,
I think I can see with more clarity..
like.. "If woman's a rib, than with him,
I've been
what I'm destined to be.."

I think I can see an "Us".. more whole..heartedly..
.
.
so I turn to face him and say "..speak to me..."

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Well queen?......
honestly?


I just Question how Deep
You
see...
How Powerful Your
"Need"..

If You will heed..
my call's
when I'm

"Un-worthy"

of even Me...
as I have
a tendency

2
destroy what
I wanna
build
up...

Loving me's
Beyond tough..

and I can't blame you
if you
wanna give Up..
cause I'm
Stuck.....

chasing my broken
emotion's..

flowing into
an ocean..
that ultimately..

leave's me...

drown't

in my own Literally...

and
Lyrically


you've Become My


Stanza's
Seed's..

nurishing

the root's that will
soon
be
our Family's
tree...

just Wonder..
is
It

Truly

Me?..


U


L-

O-

V-

E?


..............And will
eternity
turn out
2
be


temporary?.....
the depth I have toward's You is Scary....and I've already Given You all of Me....