I sit yet again
Wondering where it all went
Feeling almost…

…bereft

As though a piece of me suddenly left

Leaving without a moments notice

Having gone quietly…
… unnoticed

It’s been too long

Still.
I just can’t seem to figure out
Where it all
Went wrong

I shake head
To clear out
The steady stream of
Emotionless chatter

Arising each dawning
Feeling yet again
That nothing really matters

Spirit...
Seemingly spirited away by
A kind of numbness that pervades
Each waking thought

Negating that good ol’
Fake it ‘til you make it
Optimism
I’d once been taught

What cause have I
To suddenly…
…decisively

Choose not to try

What does it matter…

Passion
Has grown chilly
And doubt has shadowed
Once sunny horizons


Mustering up thoughts
Devised to encourage
I tell myself
Each day that transpires is a success
Fraught with opportunity
To make it better than the last

Understanding that until
There is no thought
….no breath

The die is not
Fully cast

Trying mightily
To push past
Muddled emotion

Needing to explicate
The Source

And there…

Glimpses of clarity
Can be seen
As if through gauzed eyes

.Directionless.

But no longer
Standing still

I begin to search

…for my muse