Silent cries hurt the most because they are embedded into your soul….
The tears itself are still silent…..
Does this person truthfully see your pain?
I’m so far from gone….
I’m tired of trying to place a smile on my face because I hurt inside….
No one understands….
I hate when people try to understand me…..
You never going completely understand me….
You will never see the things I have seeing or see…..
I miss my cousin….
He got shot to death on November 1, 2008
And
My pride and joy died 25 days later…..
What a way to celebrate the holidays….
You got me crying over here…..
I never cry but I hurt….
I know you looking down on me….
Yet I need the strength to go to your grave…..
I feel ashamed because I can’t do it….
When you died something died in me….
I still call your name like I will get an answer…..
But when I call your phone I get an answer....
And when your number is dailing my house I wish it was you on the other side....
It’s about to be a year and I still won’t accept you not here….
The only thing I can accept is a drink which is sad…..
That’s how I decided to cope with this never-ending pain….
I drink until I can’t feel the pain anymore…..
I know I suppose to stop I promise I will….
I can’t promise that I will….
Waiting on my 21 so it can be legal….
So I can get wasted you know how I get…..
To the point I can’t walk nor talk…..
Sound crazy but that’s how we role…