Suffocating
on the clangorous chaos of an unfulfilling Life
she
leaves
closes her eyes and
imagines...

She
envisions an existence without four hungry children and
past-due rent
she eviscerates the scent of a vile lover\'s caress
burns hes abhorrent fingerprints from her flesh with diamond raindrops
baptizes herself in the placid
sapphire waters of Peace
floats listlessly in orgasmically bliss-full quiet

She
contemplates country living and
continents \'cross the globe
sees
four little girls in immaculate dresses
dark tresses done to perfection and
a smile upon her face
sunshine in her belly and
she
awakes
eyes spring open
the phantom of that smile haunting and
she
hears it
the cacophony of arguing children and screaming bills
she
inhales the fragrance of her failing future
the stench of stale cigarettes and
amber tears and
she
stands
runs into the living room and
kisses I Love You\'s \'pon the faces of four little girls...