Trails of tears behind me,
Stammering,
Looking for a quiet space,
My mind,
it races,
To find an answer,
To the question of my life,
Why?,
Why is it that whenever I am happy,
It never lasts?,
I always end up depressed,
With tears running down my eyes,
I've tried,
To feel gud about my self,
But its just not my thing,
I've never had those feelings,
I pour out my heart to no one,
Because that's all that will listen,
It gets frustrating,
Because I get nothing back,
I hate that,
SO much hurt in these eyes,
But ppl don't care,
Every man 4 himself,
But why do I have to be left behind,
I wish things were different,
I wud be better,
Prettier,
Smarter,
More happy with my life,
Instead of down n out,
With these tears in my eyes,
Falling against the wal,
I call,
And everyone hears,
But no one answers,
Confused n dazed,
My eyes gaze,
Glistened with the evidence of hurt,
Screaming,
Won't work,
So i fall with defeat,
And sink down on the wall,
Closing my eyes,
Trying to forget it all.