i looked deep within me
pass the rough exterior
the cuts
the bruises
the scars
down past my slowly beating heart
to my soul..

and i began this [search]..

found the imperfections laced with
fear to let go
found the perfections laced with
fear to give in
found the weaknesses laced with
fear to fail
found the strengths laced with
fear to achieve
found pain..
found memories..
found joy..
found hope..

and i began this [search]..

i sat down with only me, the silence and the darkness
found the light of my once whole existance shining
dimly...
slowly fading..
slowly letting the wind blow it out.
until there was nothing left but the smoke..

and i began this [search]..

i might not be more than who I am
but i might just be stuck...
looking for answers to all these burning questions
longing for my soul to set me free...

and i continue this [search]..

to start believing that i belong
that i can achieve
that i no longer need
no longer want
or crave this never-ending [search]..

yet in still I continue this [search]..

by adding more levels and depth
by unfolding more pages
and overturning more hidden corners
within me..

and i continue this [search]..

content with what I have found this time
knowing that I will step back into this hunt
again..

to find my soul...
to find my answers..
to find Me...


...i just gotta keep soul [searching]...