playing guitar is strong relaxation ,
always brings tears to my eyes
and there is always a deep truth behind tears...
just wish I could face all the truth ,
as one might as a little child before the world puts lies in place of truths
and tries to make one believe them ,
mostly it works,
well enough that few people stop believing the propaganda
even all their lives
and think their grey lives normal and good enough
despite the misery of the conflict within
and the endless attempts to find escapes
into brief moments of convincing themselves they are happy....
as for wants,
my mind keeps pointing out that if one loves
then the wants take care of themselves ,
I even remember when it was true ,
before the world got to work on me
and I just had to see what it was talking about...
so much shit dressed up as good ,
no wonder few get through still believing in love...
false gods in religion and bankers puppets running government
to destroy people for meaningless \'profit\' without happiness
still living in conflict
cos\' stealing off others does not make anyone happy
dividing folks to control thm
lest they should get together and insist
on a life of equality, justice, plenty for all needs, peace, friendliness ...
believe me I still try to get folks to see that love is the only way that works
and it would be so good,
but almost all can\'t even hear about the only real solution,
too busy watching the propaganda on every channel,
too busy feeling sorry for themselves for the world we create for us all,
too apathetic to face changing to the only way that works ...
what a trap mankind made for itself
by being able to lie to itself and indulging it....
giving up the lies is actually harder than cold turkey ,
even fewer people make it ...
so in both cases I believe the only thing that works
once one has respect for love again
is the drive to be free of the shit most people live their lives doing
just to make bankers fat and unhappy
that they don\'t yet own the world
[on paper, cos\' when it comes to it ,
their breaking their own system,
as will inexorably happen because of the system ,
means they only own the world for a few years
before the trouble really starts
and people finally see what our lifestyle led us to ]
It\'s lucky that there ain\'t too long to go now,
I find it hard living with what I know
and hard living with what I don\'t yet acknowledge
[what we all don\'t want to know about ourselves and thus our lives] ...
Come clean and become a saint?
well maybe it will happen,
I will keep seeking to love more than anything ,
but I\'m more convinced it will happen in the next life
cos\' most people get to be saints then,
not now....
Maybe living simply will do the trick,
my next move now,
who knows,
but the peasant population has its own problems everythere,
people selling off their land ,
sacrificing independence and way of life
for the false promise of progress offered by capitalism ...
it\'s seductive and evil,
but most folks are an easy target ,
the young leave first
and then the old find it so very hard to keep working the land alone ...
it\'s just one aspect of the grand disaster called mankind
to which only the truth of the spirit of love is the answer ,
but only in the end is it the answer for all,
and in this life it is the answer only for a few ...
seems no point in anything else though ,
what else is worth anything ?
what else is more than continual attempts to escape
from the misery of not doing what our body
and spirit
and mind
want us to do,
be loving ?
[but for now one is loving only in opposition to almost the whole world,
thus it is ironically actually quite dangerous ,
people are paranoid already
and \'pearls of truth get trampled by swine\' all the time...
soon one has to just consider if it is the last days of this earth,
and for me the symbol of that will be world unity ,
then supposedyl just three and a half years
until the decision point
when the saints are taken \'home\' to the spirit
and everyone else is left to the consequences of unlovingness
with no further help from God,
no more inspiration,
no more \'gifted\' leaders for the bankesr to get assasinated ...
no longer anyone at all facing all the truth inside us .
Like it says,
if one loves then it shows one has faith in love,
but love can be known by the pleasure itself brings ,
deep lasting pleasure and inner peace
that just don\'t come from anything else
and has given some the strength to be loving
even as they were persecuted as \'troublemakers\' and \'whistle -blowers\'
because they just say what is wrong is wrong ...
for me though the greatest gift of being loving,
of respect for the truth inside us about love,
is thst it shows there is life beyond this life ,
that the emptiness of our ways is only the showing
that love is the ONLY way,
not just ONE way of life amongst many that work ...
so love ya my friend ,
my latest concise realisation,
that love is the only way home to the spirit,
one doesn\'t get there by death even ...
death is no escape from the need to become loving,
just a way to start again...
and I so do not want to start again :)