I'm anti love baby... but honeslty can u blame me?
Every cause in my life has effectively made me go crazy....
I was left with 4 kids all by my lonely...my king married another queen
I was left in a Section 8 housing project while they went on to live the picket fence dream
Instead of sweeping up dinner crumbs...I swept up empty trojan wrappers
Guess thats the consequence of dissing Wall Street Traders for Trappers
U was equipt with stock quotes but I chose "he" that rocked a bullet proof vest
Instead of savoring ur kisses to the neck I opted for his "love hits" to the chest.
"Fuck u bitch" was my understanding of his love somehow on indifferent days
Until I read ur words and u showed me that love wasn't supposed 2 sound that way
The syllables that u leaked were like metaphoric meth runnin thru my veins
And if only for a moment u released the permanaent straight jacket that he had on my brain
I aways thought the amount of teardrops spilled was a perfect equation of passion
Until u told me that u would give out ur heartbeats freely instead of handing them out in rations.
U tried to provide me with a syllabus so I could analyze ur undying adulations
But I never knew a love like urs before so I greeted the assignment with hesitation
I desired to give u my heart wholey...but I can only offer jumbled pieces
If this was true loves final exam I would fail for not following the thesis.
Who could else could ever really want me???
...4 kids...and I wore the ghetto on my shoulders like a shawl...
But u said u wanted me...weed smoke...40 sippin'...criminal record and all.....
U spoiled me with tennis bracelets when I was used to handcuffs on my wrists
I was ready to give up on men until I engaged in biting ur bottom lip in a blissful kiss...
"He" is still holding a part of my heart captive within the cement walls of his prison sentence
I still feel unworthy of ur affection cuz he has shattered my love palpitations relentless...
Meaning my heart barely beats to the cadence of love...
It's used to dodging the richotcheting of slugs....
I remeber the day I tried to walk out of ur life because I said u deserved better...
And u told me that u could love me more than any written confession from a jail house letter.
At that moment I lost a single breath and let my tears of joy finally run free...
Whoever thought that u would be the one person....who finally "got me"..........................