Stressful as life maybe but my stress is another that I can’t get ova with my family my love life my whole life nothings never good enough if it is I still get shit pushed on me being the oldest is not enough having to deal with the lost of my parents having no-one to talk to but this one great grandpa of mine..life is stressful I know that but my stress is way to much no-one cares to see it no-one cares to see how sad I really am.. I’m there for everyone else but no-one can be there for me the hurt the pain the tears I hide from everyone so they can’t see tha real me the one who has nothing going the way she wanted it to…the way my parents told me it was supposed to be anger is what gets blamed on me nothing comes close to how I feel slowly die –ing out slowly my body is giving out all I do is give my life but yet nothing never seems right the way I want things to be agree and act like everything is ok my life is good if lord could only send me an angle of mine someone who can take away this sadness and unhappiness I feel I love everyone in my life but it never seems enough and I can’t understand why it never goes my way the way I want it to be bowing down to all the loved ones around me….i need someone there for me someone who want get mad are upset with me telling them how I really feel sadness is all I feel but be happy is what I gotta be I got to many people looking at me telling me what to do telling me how they feel things aren’t perfect but to me neither I’am I …..just can’t aband them and leave them with there problems they just might turn out sadder and worn out like me but worst help them through there rubbles…when is it gonna be me?

Time will tell until then I gotta stay strong minded and stay strong hearted is what they told me to be