i wonder wut is a life worth
does it equal 2 all dis hurt
kuz it seems evereybody knoes
your name.but they dnt seem 2 know your pain
im felling all alone and my parents r gone
and it feel so strange when i have 2 beg 4 sum change
and aint nothing funny when i got no money
im tired of being poor.so im tryna find a way 2 pick da lock 2 heaven door
why is it
u kan only pray one way.but u kan die many wayz
seeing my brains splatter everywhere.
I wonder will it make da pain dissapear
or should i think bout my kidz im going 2 leave here
It seems i never care 4 myself
so im steady worrying bout everybody else
never planing on acompling my dreams.
just ploting sceams.
on a way how 2 end thingz
but i dnt want 2 use a gun it may b 2 painful
and taking sleeping pills em nah!!!!! 2 simple
I want 2 do sumthing 2 set a example
give a scene 2 da homicide crew 2 remeber
kuz I want my death 2 b da biggest story n da news paper
of december
it seems like im da good guy
but the bad guys move n overdrive
i disrespected my mom 2 show of n front my friends
now it seems she dosent luv me
and all my friends they seem 2 left me
and wut about daddy i messed our relationship up
years ago
no need 2 try 2 go back itz way down da road
itz 2 far and i kan barly walk because im so scared
my hands r so dirty there dark as dusk
so everything i touch seems 2 get messed up
everytime i get peace n my hand.it keeps breaking
over and over again
i live n a bad reality
so i try 2 live n mind n a fantasy
kuz im tired of sleeping on da bed room floor
and being ignored
kuz itz so hard 2 talk like alsharpen
when u live in a brokedown apartment
kuz nobody wants 2 hear wut u have 2 say
if u aint gettn payed
when u r broke and u try 2 be seriousl
everybody laughts and takes u az a joke
well we gonna c how funny it is when they find this note
and look n my closet and c my sliced throat
now they shoulda listen 2 my cry of quotes
then i woulda never wrote this sucide note
but itz to late mother yo baby boy is gone
now u dnt have 2 worry about me messing up yo life
so finnaly i hope u kan sleep tight 2night
and dnt let da bed bugs bite
My kife seems like a joke
but im gonna let u know i was serious
when i wrote this suicidal note



this is how i used 2 think b4 i gave my life 2 jesus christ
he lets me knoe there always sumbody standing n your corner and itz only him and god





god my life seems like a joke
So im being serious when i write this sucide note