Wow that's some deep, powerful pain you expressing. I hope you get to see you family soon. Keep bleeding your emotions out on paper instead of holding them in. 10s
so far I've read two of your poems, and see you are full of pain. keep writng because this is a good way to relieve stress. stay strong. you are great writer because you write from the heart. maybe one day you can publish your first book of poetry, and all of your pain can be used to help someone else. (cool)