TO SAY I HATE YOU WOULD BE A LIE
BUT TO SAY I LOVE YOU I CAN'T EVEN TRY
MY PRIDE WONT LET ME CRY
BUT EACH THAT DAY THAT GOES BY HURTS ME MORE AND MORE
SO MANY EMOTIONS THAT GO THROUGH MY HEAD
I TRIED CHANGING MYSELF FOR YOU, BUT NOW I SEE THAT IT WAS A WAIST OF TIME
OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS TELL ME TO LIVE AND LET GO, BUT NEVER FORGET THE PAIN THAT WAS CAUSED
THEY SAY IT WILL HELP ME GROW
I THOUGHT THAT I WOULD BECOME CLOSER TO YOU AFTER MY DAD DIED, BUT NOW I SEE THAT IT PUSHED US FURTHER AWAY
ONLY GOD KNOWS HOW MUCH PAIN YOU PUT ME THROUGH
YOUR SUPPOSED TO BE MY GRANDMOTHER, SOMEONE I CAN TALK TO, SOMEONE WHO WILL LISTEN TO MY PROBLEMS OR SOMEONE I CAN BAKE COOKIES OR SING A SONG WITH FROM TIME TO TIME
INSTEAD YOU ACT LIKE I DON'T EXIST
YOU TREAT YOUR NIECES AND NEPHEWS LIKE THEIR YOUR PRIDE AND JOY
AND HERE I AM BEING A FOOL AND LETTING YOU TREAT ME LIKE SHIT OVER AND OVER AGAIN
I AM 17 YEARS OLD NOW, SOON I WILL BE 18
DAMN NEAR GROWN AND ON MY OWN
I'M NOT GOING TO KEEP ON WAISTING MY TIME WAITING FOR YOU TO CHANGE AND HAVE ME IN YOUR LIFE
YOU EITHER HAVE ME OR YOU WONT
YOU EITHER LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM OR YOU DONT
UNTILL YOU MAKE UP YOUR MIND
I'M SAYING THE HELL WITH IT
YOUR NOT THE ONLY GRANDMOTHER I HAVE
I HAVE ANOTHER WHO LOVES ME UNCONDITIONALLY TO THIS VERY DAY
SHE HAS BEEN THERE THROUGH ALL MY UP'S AND DOWN'S
WHEN I WAS SICK, SHE WAS THERE TO HELP MAKE ME BETTER
WHEN I WAS DOWN, SHE HELPED ME GET BACK ON MY FEET AND TOLD ME TO TRY AGAIN
NOT YOU!
IT'S NOT MY STYLE TO GIVE UP ON SOMEONE
BUT WAITING FOR MORE THAN 17 YEARS IS RIDICULOUS.
THAT'S WHY I'M SAYING......THE HELL WITH IT!