I lay, in total dismay
Bleeding heart, broken feelings
My life, what life?
Seems like an eternity
Of painful burning MISERY
God, what FUCKING GOD?
What do I do?
I am the lost sheep
My shepherd has died
Life, You live
Love, you die
I am the sacrifice
That never seems to die
.....I fucking loved
Till she raped and exposed me
To fucking love
I’ve learnt
It’s not the thing
That gets you above
But what
Get’s you down
No Happiness
In misery
I have drowned
Tears drown my brain
Why, oh why
Won’t you go away?
I wish, I could give you up
But I can’t
The cowardly but easy way out
Flirts with me
It starts by giving blood
Stained kisses
It tells me a way
How I can be free
But!!! Should I give my virginity away?
And let it be inside me forever?
My thoughts and feelings, to me they say
Is it worth, for her to burn away?
And to NEVER, come again
All over my body
The cowardly but easy way out
Leave’s its marks of affection
I humbly accept
One night, crying over spilt milk
I almost went to sleep, the never ending sleep
FOOLISH!!! How could I?
Not feel?
Not see?
What was real?
And not Insanity
I lay here, in my bed
Writing down, the true events
Spilling form my FUCKED UP head