Blood shot red
Tears in my eyes
Pain sets in
And I realize
For the first time, that
I
am
jealous.
So nonchalant, not a care in the world
Never would I care about another girl
Its not me, it just not my way
I can’t see myself crying, and yet here’s another day
Another note another poem dedicated in your honor
Kinda makes me crazy
So I sit here and ponder
Why him why now what make my eyes wander
I think and I thought and begin to conjurer
Thoughts from deep within
Feelings that raise the hairs on my skin
Anger because she’s in the way
Frustration because she’s with him another day
Sorrow because I let him leave
But he was never mine to begin with you see
I am what I hate the most with no change intended
I am who I am so another scar is mended
But this one doesn’t want to heal
Infected with jealously, so I must feel
This bacteria eating away at my soul
Spreading and polluting the core of my whole
No antibiotic for this disease
I must let it consume and take over me
Infecting the blood and killing each cell
Shut down the vision and body as well
To the point where all I can do is cry
Then I suck up the tears and dry each eye
To the point where not another tear forms
“I’m done with the tears and I’m done with the poems
This is the last the final your last ode
I’ve been here before, I’ve traveled this road
Beating a dead dog is what they say
I say shoot ‘em in the ass and watch him run away
Fuck it I’m done you can have her I don’t care
I’m tired of you anyway, always breathing my air
Holdin’ my hand touchin my face
There’ll be a ton of you but me, you can’t replace”
“That’s the infection speaking you know how I feel
The Jealousy has got me, you know it’s not real”
“Fuck you, I’m the best. You know what you’ll miss?
You’ll never find something quite like this.”
“Don’t listen, I’m yours, let’s work it out
I’m hurting and there’s no doubt”
“No doubt that you could have had me but now it’s too late
Snacking down on carp when I was on your plate”
This is the battle that I face daily
Fighting the infection called Jealousy



*_*Swallow my tears and taste the venom that is the essence of me ...........*_*