I NEVER THOUGHT THAT I'LL CRY OVER YOU
REALIZING THAT IM ACTUALLY IN LOVE
AND REALIZING NOW THAT YOUR HEART FEELS DIFFERENTLY
IT HURTS
THAT YOU DONT KNOW WHAT LOVE IS
NOT JUST A WORD BUT AN ACTION
IN MATHEMATICAL TERMS
YOUR LOVE
WAS A FRACTION OF MINE
WE'VE DIVIDED AND IVE FORGAVE 70 TIMES 7
NUMEROUS OF TIMES IVE DEALT WITH YOUR LIES N YOUR TRUTHS
DREW IN DEEP WINDS (BREATHE IN)
AND SWALLOWED THAT PAIN GOIN DOWN MY THROAT
I COULD FEEL YOU BUMPING UP AGAINST THE WALLS OF MY LUNGS
CAPTURED AND ARRESTED
IN THE GATES OF MY HEART
AND THERE YOU WILL CLING...

TILL YOU DESOLVE
SWIMMING IN MY BLOOD STREAM
YOU MY BITTER SWEET
WILL ALWAYS BE WITHIN ME

I NEVER THOUGHT THAT ILL BE STRESSED AFTER GIVING YOU MY BEST
I SIT WITH OTHER WOUNDED WOMAN
AND I CAN RELATE NOW
BOB MY HEAD N RAISE MY HANDS
SAYING " HMMMM MMMM" AND " GURL I FEEL YA!"
BOBING MY HEAD AND RAISING MY HANDS
AS IF I HEAR MY SOUL MUSIC
CLAPPING AND LAUGHING
BUT DEEP INSIDE IM... CRYING

NEVER THOUGHT THAT ILL BE THIS CHIC
YOU MY LOVE HAVE TURNED ME INTO A BITTER BITCH
TAKING MY ANGER OUT ON HER AND HIM
FROWNING AT LITTLE KIDS
THEY WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND
HOW A LIGHT CAN BE TURNED DARK
BY MAN

WEARING BLUE EYESHADOW TO DISPLAY HOW I FEEL IN THE INSIDE ON THE OUTSIDE
WHEN I CLOSE MY EYES
IT BECOMES HARD TO RE OPEN THEM UP TO
ACCEPT THIS HURT AS IT IS
BUT IT IS WHAT IT IS
I BLAME KARMA FOR NOT HAVING MERCY ON MY BRUISED SOUL
KARMA SEEN THAT YOU PLEASED ME TO A CERTAIN DEGREE
AND LAUGHED AT HOW YOU DISMISSED ME!

KARMA TRUELY IS A MOTHAFUCKA!
AND I FEEL FUCKED!
IN A SITUATION
I WISH I HAD'NT BEEN INVOLVED IN

THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON
I TELL MYSELF
TO REMEMBER
ITS PART OF BEING A BLACK WOMAN
BUT I FEEL LITTLE
CURLED UP IN MY BED
WET TISSUES SURROUNDING MY FLOOR
CRYING OUT ALL MY LIVELY JUICES
I FEEL WEAK
AS I STUMBLE TO WASH MY FACE
I CANT GET MYSELF TO LOOK IN THE BATHROOM MIRROR
AND I REEK!!!!!!!!!!!!
CUZ IN MY MIND
IVE BEEN RUNNING
VENTING
CURSING THE WORLD
FOR PAINTING THAT HORRIBLE IMAGE IN THE YOUNG MANS MIND THAT ITS ALL ABOUT
MONEY SEX N CLOTHES!

HAD ME FOR A MINUTE ENVYING THESE VIDEO HOES
AND THATS SOMETHING I NEVER THOUGHT WOULD CROSS MY ACHEING MIND
( SCRATCHING MY HEAD)
LIKE ZACHARIAS COULDNT BELIEVE THIS PROPHESY CAME TRUE!
FOUND MYSELF MUTE
WORD COULDNT PROFUSE MY TONGUE TO LIFT AND DICTATE A SIMPLE SOUND

FRIENDS SNAPPING FINGERS IN FRONT OF MY FOCUS
" LIKE YO!!! HEEELLLOOO IS ANYBODY THERE?"

NO. ( I THINK)

THE ME I USED TO BE HAS LEFT
AND DOESNT WANT TO COME BACK
CAUSE KNOWING THIS SHIT CAN HAPPEN AGAIN
BURNS MY EGO
HAS GOTTEN ME ALL SHOOK UP
THE THOUGHT OF BEING LET GO
"CAUSES ME TO RUN, THEY WOULD IN HELL FOR HEAVENS COOLING GATE"
WHEN HE ASKING FOR MY NUMBER
OR EVEN MY NAME
" WHY DOES HE WANT TO KNOW MY IDENTITY?'
WHEN IN THE END THATS ALL I HAVE TO HOLD ON TO

I USED TO HOLD ON TO YOU ...MY LOVE


NOW I CLUTCH MY PILLOW
WHILE THE MOON WATCHES ME CRY
TRYING TO SOOTHE ME WITH ITS GLORIOUS LIGHT

YOU LEFT ME FEELING MIGHTY LOW
BUT THIS HURT THAT IM FEELING
IS PART OF THE PROCESS OF GETTING OVER YOU

NOW THERE WILL BE TIMES
WHEN ILL WRITE SOME CRAZY POEM ABOUT YOU ( HEHE )
AND THERE WILL BE TIMES WHEN ILL BECOME
POSSESSIVE & STALKISH EVEN
YES!

ITS ALL PART OF THE PROCESS
BUT I WILL!
AND I MUST!
GET OVER YOU
MY BITTER SWEET
EVEN THOUGH



I REALLY DIDNT WANT TO .








I WROTE THIS FOR "MR .ANONYMOUS " I PRAY ONEDAY YOU'LL WAKE UP SLEEPING CHILD BUT WHEN YOU WAKE UP N YOU LOOK TO YOUR RIGHT THEN YOUR LEFT I WONT BE THERE REALITY SUCKS SOMETIMES GET OVER IT! ( HA!)

PHENOMENAL UNO