Just when I thought our relationship had no hope….. you go and fucking change
Effortlessly making me love you more today than I did before… now only SEMI- deranged
I find myself trying to find a fault in you so that I can point my finger and say “HA! I knew it”
But it seems the harder I look for something the less I find and I can no longer say YOU blew it

3 ½ years of hell, torment, and tears, but now not even an argument
But you seem to love me like never before, willing to be there for us 100%
I watch you as you sleep, hoping to memorize the peacefulness forever
Cuz in my mind, still, somewhere down the line I don’t know if we’ll stay together

And maybe I’m just paranoid because I’ve never known this side of you
Maybe I don’t believe you when you say you regret everything you put me through
Sometimes I wanna crack open your chest and make sure that your heart really has guilt
Maybe that way I can move forward with you and enjoy whatever it is we’re trying to build

Or I wish I can take a peak at your thoughts and make sure that your not just schemin’
That way I can prepare myself incase you’re thinking of leavin’
I would be crushed cuz I never wanted to live my life without you by my side
And if all this is just another trick up your sleeve… I swear, I’ll die

Cuz I can’t take not one more minute of suffering, my heart is no longer that strong
I’ve dealt with so much bullshit, from every direction, for too long
And I just feel like my guards will never come down, and my heart will never be free
And I can’t even look in your eyes when ever you say “Baby, this time you can trust me”

But the truth is I can’t, and as sad as it sounds, don’t know if I ever will
And the good honest truth is, I make it to a new day with the help of my sleeping pills
Cuz it’s only when I’m dead asleep that I can breathe easy and not really stress
But every morning when I wake up I find asking GOD if this is another test

Hard to believe that all of a sudden you had a change of heart
You confessed that the white hoe had your life falling apart
With tears in your eyes you said I was your hero, I gave you reason to live
And now promised to do right by my side and give it all that you have to give

I can’t promise you tomorrow baby, cuz I barely know where I’m heading right now
And I can’t say everything will be ok, but I’ll love you as much as my heart allows
And I hope that we find peace with each other and make it to another day
And if we never walk down the aisle just know… with or without each other… we’ll be ok!!


Incase I’m too scared to tell you later… I LOVE YOU BAE!