I wish i could define it as a mere tremble
But the fear which you have embedded in me
Is Consuming every beat my heart makes
And when i blink
MY eyes do more than cleanse themselves
They lubricate themselves with tears filled with terror
Not to mention the veins that unfurl to fuse anxiety with my blood
I am distressed at the idea
That the thoughts of you won't be erased
Apphrehension takes control of my vitals
As my heart spikes on monitors
For i can only hope that my demise will be at their peaks
To fall onto them and flatten the lifeline that runs its course
So that maybe
Just Maybe
My pain receptors can be re-routed
So that they are distracted and forget all about you
Because I am daunted
Daunted by the thoughts of love
No longer do i choose to believe that
It was better to have loved and lost then to never have loved at all
Because losing you was even more painful than losing myself
And loving you was as sweet as honey
But the bitter taste you left behind
Isn't worth the memories
So the hopes that reached the sky
Collapsed the day you left me
Left me alone
FEeling like a child abandoned in an empty lot
Feeling like an Army Wife in the middle of this war
ALONE
Alone because the only companion i knew was you
Alone because there wasnt a breathing moment where i didnt think of you
But now
Now i am left with nothing but uneasiness
I stumble upon my words
As i am terror-stricken
For i am afraid of not being able to forget you
Because remembering you
Hurts almost as much as breathing....
Since the day you left me
I am truely blue