All night long...my man paced the floor
Couldn't get no sleep
Steady watchin the door
KNOWIN who and where these muthafuckas is
how they came in and did us
And endangered his kid
I say..."Baby come with me back to bed"
He steady pacin the floor
Rubbin his head and chest
Feelin the 32 stiches it took to close him up
From where these cowards
Beat and cut him up
I was so tired from this whole ordeal
Asked my man to come lay down once gain
Come rub and touch my belly so he can feel
The new life we created
For the new life we was about to be livin
One minute...Five then ten...baby's kicks gettin real belated
My man says.."He usually move more than this"
Started talkin to my belly
Then gave it a kiss
He said..."There...that oughta wake up his lil ass"
We both lay there waitin
Now ten...twenty then 30 minutes had passed
I started gettin worried...then looked at my man
He said..."Let's call the dcotor"
"AW SHIT....I don't know how much more of this I can stand!"
Callin the doc...and she says "I'll meet you at the hospital in fifteen"
My man drove so fast
Sat in the passenger's seat...hopin this was all a dream
Rushed me in through the big glass doors
Doc was already there
Waitin for me on the maternity floor
Took me back to the examining room
and did a sonogram...looked at me and said
"We're gonna have to deliver this baby soon"
I looked at her and asked was he okay
She couldn't look at me
Couldn't get her to say
Called my man in the room and explained it to both
The baby didn't have a heart beat
But that could mean nothing...just continued to HOPE
That he was STILL in there fightin but maybe was gettin weak
I looked at the doc and my man
There was nothin left to speak
Slid off my clothes and got ready for the surgery
Said they needed to move quickly
Deliverin this baby was an emergency
Said my man couldn't come back...he'd have to wait
Out there in the lobby
While the docs decided our unborn child's fate
In the room...it was so bright and cold
They put in my I.V.
And the birth began to unfold
They cuttin and pullin...movin me like crazy
I'm shakin and scared
Only thinkin of my baby
I heard the doc say..."he's out!"
Tried to look around so I could see my lil man
Wanted to hear his cries and hear his shouts
Next thing I know the room is gettin blurry
I'm thinkin..."they better bring my dayum baby!"
"Don't they know I'm in a hurry?!"
To see the gift that God had given me
Was swept away by the drugs they pushed in my veins
Didn't even get a chance to see
Woke up a few hours after
Belly gone way down...No happy people in my room
No voices and laughter
Only my mama and my man's faces I see
Each holdin my hand...
Lookin down at me
I feel the hot tears fallin on my hands
All of a sudden I realize what has happened
Those mutha fucka's......they KILLED my lil man!
They took away the only pure thing from my life
The child that was supposed to give meaning
To all my pain and strife
That I had endured and went through over the years
Even though this hurt more than anything in the world
I STILL couldn't find the tears
Stayed in the hospital for another day
They sent me home
Like I was supposed to just be on my way
Back to lead a normal sense of existance
Keep movin on with my life
Like this never even happened
Walked in the house and went straight to "his" room
Picked up his blankets and stuffed animals
That I had picked out, 'cause I knew he was comin soon
But now that life was never gonna be
Them coward punk ass mutha fuckas
Took that away from me......

GILES ARDENWICK
PETE WASHINGTON
KIETH BROWN

Hope prison is treatin U well.....BITCHES!!!!!

To all who have taken the time out to read this.......
Just so YOU know....
I DID finally cry.
I cried when they sentenced these hoe ass bitches to 85 years in prison
I cried because I KNEW it was finally over...no more visions
Flashin in my head of what they did to me
They got and STILL gettin pain like they gave to me

Thanks for readin.....
MY
TRUE STORY