B4 U READ! This is a free write that i wrote when i was going thre and abusive relationship, and having problems with my dad. Its really only adressed to the readers! So dont try to comprehend that much because its not ment to be understood! Just try to feel my pain, hate, anger, and exhaustan.
ENJOY







My thoughts are empty, my mind is blank.
Our Sweet memmories replay over and over in my head like a fox film production.
I know your no good for me but, your presence still lingers near me.
We ended and you let go of the rope but , I'm still anusiously holding on!
Your a hypnotic, that substance that keeps me going.
Its funni how your name can historically make me laugh but, also sob myself to sleep.

Every brokenhearted love song reminds me that day,.. yep the one i wouldn't care to think of,speak of and even remember.
That day you make me turn my cheeks the other way, that day when u lost all control and before my eyes you changed.
You the nice,sweet, compassionate one, what happened?

I told you i would ride for you be the #1 chik that was down for you but, that all changed in a matter of minutes.
So now i look at you the way we use to sneer @ others,laugh a bit, and turn our heads.
Now, do you just choose to hate me, or does it come natuarlly?

But, before we permently disconnect the phone lines, here's a verse of a song that we both missed,"In my sick way I wanna thank you for holding my head up late at night, while i was busy raging wars on my self you where there to help me with the fight."

This is a free Verse, theres no cute rhyming or silly meaning here it's all layed out flat on the chopping block . Just the way you gave me everything stright so here it is all back to you there's not a speak of sugar in sight.
Does this make you happy?

My true feelings for you papi i cannot show, I'm afraid you wouldnt know how to take them, so i conseal them inside, the safest place for them, Untill a day when i have the guts to spill them to you.

Yea, "What hurts the most was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away!" WHOA, that better bring back swollen memories. That reminds me of the 16th I didnt put up a fight,I just told you that was it. I lost some one very close to me. I'm sorry i didnt fight for you, beg and pled for you but, it was just a choice you accepted it for what it was. And that was that!

With you, you know the real Jasmine the one i seldomly show, you know me so well, and i promise that i wont let this one end like that last one, no way!
I won't let you go with out a fight.

Your my friend my roddie, the main one who's been down since day one. You care for me, what more is there to say? She never got in our way before me,.... so now she's outta the pic, whatz keeping you from me?

So now its all now what? So now I ask you as a father now what? So i ask you as a boyfriend now what?