Been out of advice
So long have I lost the words
I cant hear myself think anymore
Nothing seems to make sense

I am left without the mentality to understand
The reasons, the feelings that I would need
To help …. I cant seem to work it out
I am left without a voice to speak

What has happen to me
Through the years
Am I really broken
Or is it just how it is meant to be

The last moment in life
Hopefully will reveal a reason
At least some comfort to me
Letting me know it was all wroth it

I am all out of options
And I need to let things happen
I need to suffer some more
For what I have done, or am about to do

I am not asking for the answers
Just a bit of warning
So that I know what to expect
But I know I am going to have to do this

Blindfolded … (takes breath) …. Ok I am ready