Front door living room my uncle laid dead
Two Bullet in his head Right there I wasn’t scared I understood what he died for
Yall Baer with me As a child my mind was filled with gore
Jason was not Jason anymore emotionally disturbed to the core
Just two years older then four You can say Jaysin was born
State mad cause my mom was gone and drugs were in the home
dumped on my aunt who’s hustle was weed and porn
But with my heart still scorned from not having a chance to mourn
My mind filled with hate which was only calmed by porn
I spent most my time watching her friends and eating popcorn
Driving her Benz’s selling her movies to my school friend
who turned to weed friends at first we get high on the weekends
Then everyday turned to a weekend I stayed reeking
But In my mind my uncle kept saying what are you thinking
So I tried to drown his voice out by drinking but he was there every time I would blink
He is my missing link I did things that made stores have high shrink
Wearing cloths with tags full of ink looking at the police like my shit didn’t stink
I can sell anything down to the kitchen sink breaking into safes made by brinks
eighteen with a Id that said I can drink got other people name on cards buying me minks
Chains with no kinks Just think wearing Diamonds in rings that don’t fit in your ear
When you speak females always hear and say they will always be there
Biggest smiles when I came around means she didn’t want nothing more then a fuck around
So I kept my hand out like bring me money now and to this day she still bringing me money now
My cousin TED always would hold me down he showed me how to interstate holds pounds
From the Zona always to chi town had the summer hotter then sauna it was my town
I was a low key stunner red H3 that’s a red hummer always smoking on that thunder (that good shit)
that killer with a chick the color of yeller who’s nigga thought I wouldn’t steal her
but I had already actually stole her i was her head so by sex I control her
Cuz was who he thought I was but Im use to it so he is who I thought I was
Lil dude moved the hell of bud he sold and I tainted her like dirty blood infested with drugs
Trips to ATL where I learned beans was another party drug that would keep me in the club
Everybody that rolled by showed me love sliding me paper doves that’s nothing less then a dub
my real birds flew outside of the club from Jamaica to right out side the club man shit was crazy
I sat around but didn’t get fat I wasn’t lazy open road trafficking under another niggas baby
and his lady For the shit I got he’s still gone pay me that’s why he was at home waiting
not even debating on the prices I was stating that meant he wasn’t hating
smooth criminal Operating but all I can thinking about was that living room
Cant let it become deja vu if my uncle only knew that what kept me feel like his fate is my doom
I was having a baby soon God way of showing me to be calmed a month before June (5/18/04)
let the briefcase fall down out of my palm invest more time into the bible every psalm
It was time for a spiritual revival for my daughters survival so I gave the game up to my rivals
They can keep chasing that dream west like fievel I ain’t got time to running from five O
that’s an American tail that I can no longer sell but America makes it hard for a nigga that went to jail
Seven years past and im still stuck in jail making earth seem like a living hell that’s right Jaysin is back from hell cant you tell im not selling no sins please open your eyes and start witnessing
The miracle that god has brought back around I now know how to move with no sound
I guess you can say I travel with in bounds no longer trying to move pounds found my mom
And Found out how to make pound cakes She told me why and how I was state took
She made my auntie look like no good but we here now so were all good I brought myself out of the hood
Dad still distant but it be how it should he really ain’t got nothing for me
so he ain’t getting nothing from me (that’s real)
Uncle J rest in peace ……………………………….......................................................
and to my baby Nevaeh daddy got people giving love to you cause you’re a part of me
that’s on top of the love that you get from me my heaveN is what you will always be
I want to thank yall for listening to me there is no part two or three from me you get what you see but its not the last you will see trust me (just pray for me)