(cough cough)(gasp) What the (cough) hell is goin (cough) on? Why can't I breathe regularly? Speak regularly? Think regularly? It's that girl that i met a while ago. She walks, talks,and smiles with a breathtaking after effect. How is it that she not only demands my attention but at the same time grabs and maintains it for the time of her presence? Her purity and divinity is evident whenever i see her. Ha ha ha ha I laugh in scorn at those niggaz. What they wish to do with her she refrains from doing til later on in her life. Put on hold on finding out how tender her lips are, how supple her jennifer love hewitt's are, and how nice her ass is; she shall always hold true to who she really is.

(cough cough) (choke) It's happening again. She's within the vicinity. Her after effects are at a higher degree than normal At a level so supernatural I could be induced with every status ailment known to man on some real final fantasy type shit. That's how devastating and spine rupturing her looks and personality is. I can't help but kill myself over how i am the one who didn't make her aware of the situation...who didn't notify her ahead of time that there was another before her. I know im not underhanded. im not sneaky. why didn't i tell her? what held me back? i love her too much to hurt her. she's to fragile to be heartshattered. yeah dat's right heartshattered instead of heartbroken. It's a more extreme situation than breakin her heart. So why did i do what only a misunderstood fool would do? doesn't matter what i think. all that matters is what it seemed like to her. that's the reality of it. to this day she knows how i feel about her. i long for her return. the day we finish where we left off; continue our lives...together...as one.