I hide this pain in my heart
When I think about life without you.
I just shut down inside and cry
Because when it’s your time
I won’t know what to do.

I am sorry for not being the son
You may have wanted me to be.
I put you through too much in your life…
My soul doesn’t deserve to be free.

I have no family and besides they cant see
The change I have in my heart…
I know you want me to get married one day
But I feel like I am just broken into parts.

I will mourn more and all my pain
Will just pour all out.
I guess that’s why nobody understands what
I am really all about.
How could they
When all they did was love me
With doubt?

But you see more in me
Than anyone else did.
And that’s what is going to break me…
When your gone
I wont have you to turn to
Like I did when I was a kid.

You always told me
I was more than just the chain
But it is you that is my lock.
I can’t hold myself together without you
I would forever be lost.

Please God
Whatever you do
Take me before you take my mom…
Because if I can’t love myself now
How am I suppose to do it
When all I had is gone?