why am I here

as if born a mistake
never wanted
heartache'd to fate

pained by life
love pushed me away
joy for me
is a wish to late

living in dreams

disillusioned
in mirage'd schemes

illusions of love …so real

it almost touches me

but when I wake
my heart it breaks

wishing in my dreams
I could fade within…....far away

living within a poem
hoped upon a mental stream

wondering if love
will ever find me

before it's to late
and life is done with me

not letting me find
love other than a dream
or deep within my poetry

I know I love him
but he doesn't love me

through the house
like strangers

passing down the street

him/ me

pain echoing
hollowing each

burnt impressions
stains of history

no longer burn
in-between we

as i wonder
did he ever love me