long deep breaths
holdin it in
no light shining thru,
where does it end

long empty hallways
where patients once were
strapped to their beds
in such a blur

strapped to machines
from head down to toes
the constant torment
y? nobody knows.

some say they were crazy
and then sum just needed help
with medications and such
their brains started to melt

no more words comin out
now only blank stares
no emotions now shown
only glassed over glares

no movement, no feeling
theres nothing there now
just a blank empty soul
and an odor so foul.

an odor of longing
an odor of lust
an odor of belonging
an odor of disgust

this is my home
and this is me
i live this inside
but nobody sees

nobody sees the glazed over eyes
nobody sees the life full of lies

nobody sees this longing inside
to be normal again if only for a matter of time

to not take these meds and feel as i feel
i pray everyday as by my bed i kneal

God take this pain and take it away
make me feel normal for at least one day

let me forget this pain, this torture, this life
but i can not forget it as i reach for the knife

no movement, no feeling
theres nothing there now
just a blank empty soul
and an odor so foul

an odor of longing
an odor of lust
an odor of belonging
an odor of disgust

this is my life and im now all alone
to wander these hallways i now call my home